life (lyn)

Standard and Poor’s downgrades the US credit rating.   As a result, the market plummets more than 600 points, one of the worst falls in its history. 

My eyes open at 3:00 am.  It’s not food and weight and staying thin that dominate my thoughts.  No, the topics that consume me and haunt my hours, both sleeping and awake, are:

• Alexander’s leaving in a little over a week.
• My dad’s health (he’s back in the hospital).
• My lack of income, dwindling retirement savings and inability to make a living.

There’s little I can do about the first and second, but the third.  Oh the third.  Why can’t I figure it out?  I ‘m scared.