And so it begins. Another year of skating competitions.
The big summer competition happens at the same time each year. Same place. We stay in the same hotel.
I vividly remember one moment last year. It had nothing to do with skating and everything to do with my weight.
I was in the hotel room, in the bedroom and the closet doors were mirrored. I bent down to pick up something and caught my reflection in the mirror. It was the moment of truth for me. I never in my life imagined that I was that big. I knew it was bad, just not that bad. I couldn't believe it. How did I not know? How did I let this happen to myself? I wanted to hide so that others wouldn't see me. Then I realized they already saw me....it was I who was just now "seeing" myself.
Fast forward to this year. Minus 60 pounds. A big dent.
This year's memory is very different. I was standing outside in front of the rink, talking to one of the mothers and caught my reflection in a window.
I was smaller than I thought.
What a difference a year makes.
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